The Letter Vision Quest

Birthday Spiral

Last we left off, we were deep in the birthday spiral. What is a good existential crisis without an astral solution? The day before my birthday I did some breathwork and meditation that really shakes me up. It’s an induces epiphanies for me, which is an actual birthday gift I want to give to myself. One thing I absolutely love about breathwork is it really can wake you up. For me, it feels like I am scraping the plaque from my psychic channel and makes it crystal clear what needs to come in.

As I breathed and chanted, I heard “you need to write 10 letters”. This makes sense to me. I used to write all sorts of letters. The best parts of my life were layered with sparce phone usage and lots of letter writing. I used to write 1-3 letters a day. I had penpals whose relationship were only sustained through the power of the pen. I had a friends once say “I can’t tell if all these letters you send me are going to end up subpoenaed or in a museum”, and that my friends is one of the best compliment I have ever gotten in my life.

I wrote a list of 10 people that I wanted to write letters to, with the intention to write a letter every day to said list. Well, the universe had something a bit more spicy in store.

I get the deep feeling that I need to do 2-3 weeks of intense breathwork to push me into this new year of life for myself. Give myself an energetic reset of sorts. We are a few days out of “Hit Me Spring” a dance challenge I host where we dance everyday either outside, in public, or for 20 minutes, or all 3! It’s a time of incredible expression, creativity, manifestation, and liberty of the mind and body. This was the first year I hosted a challenge publicly, but the third year I’ve hosted a group.

Frank

A few days before my birthday, I was doing my 20 minute dance session in a room with a fish tank. I could feel the energy pulse out of my hands, and I put my hands by the tank and thought “ I could talk to this fish right now”, so I asked the fish if he had a message for me. I felt such a strong feeling of the word “Frank”. Heh, the fish just named himself.

Fast forward to a few days later where I’m doing my breathwork/ channeling and I get a text from my ex saying that his grandfather “Frank” had passed away. Frank was a painter and art professor at Howard University, and I had the pleasure of staying with him in retirement for a week. He passed away in his sleep on my birthday.

This was the second day of breathwork, and when I started realizing that I was opening a portal that was a bit more unpredictable than I had expected. Maybe this was going to be a bit deeper than writing 10 letters to people. It looked like this letter vision quest was going to start to wind and turn in ways that might not be fully apparent to me weeks, months, or years after the fact.

Ammonite

I’ve had a very long and strange love affair with the fossil ammonite. It’s been such a strange journey, that I started recording and sharing my experiences with the fossil through my TikTok ammonite series . It started when a friend gifted me and my friend and dear podcast entreprequeers podcast co-host, and she said “we’re going to travel”. Over the span of the week, I realized that 7 dreams that I had written down 2 months prior had come true. My experience with ammonite has been so surreal, Salvador Dali- esque, dream walking reality.

When I left Florida, I started giving away all of my ammonite. I began working it with it very intimately. It felt like it was time for me to clear the energy and stop disrupting my astral and physical life. I wanted to cultivate more Venusian energy. Easy, breezy, beautiful cover girl. I kept one piece- the one I wore during my Kundalini Awakening, and had kept with my for almost every major ritual for the past year and a half. I brought it with me to Paris, and I spent Christmas with my dear friend and spiritual coach Lau.

I worked with Lau for 6 months after my Kundalini Awakening, and it was one of the most transformative, intense, deep work I have ever done. She invited me to Amsterdam for Christmas with her family, and I gave her my final ammonite on a whim. It turns out her mom has an almost identical ammonite that she got in Egypt. It had the same clasp, and was the same size. It looks almost exactly the same.

We channeled things about her business, and the overwhelming message was “don’t focus on money, and focus on the being”. We started seeing the same images and messages from the ammonite. I sent her the library of experiences I had documented on TikTok. I was so grateful I documented all of this, because you have a living history that other people can compare it to. When you start working in the astral, it can be easy for things to become hazy as you experience things from different timelines and dimensions. One of the reasons for this blog is to document some strange astral stuff, and also keep as a personal living library for myself.

On the 3rd day of doing my breathwork and channeling, and I got very strong and distinct messages for Lau and her business. I knew I had to write her a letter. This was when I realized I wasn't going to be choosing who I wrote letters to, but they were going to be channeled with different message to me.

As I set out to write her letter at a coffee shop, she texted me a photo of the ammonite. It has broken into 3 pieces. This felt like an end of an era for the both of us. The piece of ammonite was thick, and it had just broken in her purse. Sometime gemstones, crystals, and fossils break to let you know that your time working with them is over.

Stranger Danger

The days go on, and I know I’m supposed to write 10 channeled letter. The first few were obvious. Friends in my circle with a pretty tight astral schedule and practice. I was not at all confused that these people were coming through.

And then I got a stranger.

Not a complete stranger, but I had followed them on Instagram from a online co working session I was in. Her instagram name came through so strongly, I couldn’t ignore it. I send the message and said I was doing breathwork and writing letters to people, and asked if I could send her a letter. She agreed. She poked around and saw my blog about Kundalini and aliens and said that “she thought we were on the same wavelength”.

I wasn't surprised by this, and had a feeling we were a similar energetic sphere. People with big astral energy pick up on other people with big astral energy. I had a friend I hadn’t seen or talked to in almost 10 years, but we connected on TikTok. I told them I had a dream they were going to get a PhD in philosophy and science (there was a very specific word that I can’t remember now), and she said “yeah I am looking into doing that. I’m applying to PhD programs now.” The next night I had a dream about the program, and the classes she was taking. I messaged her this and she said “before I went to bed I asked for a message to come in my sleep”. She didn’t have a dream, but I did.

She had trust and big energy, and therefore I had trust and big energy. We are not meant to go on this spiritual journey alone. It is not supposed to be isolating, but rather an interconnected journey where we astrally connect and help each other. While the physical strives to keep us in individualism and isolation, when we connect to ourselves, and therefore everything else, we realize how connected, loved, and powerful we all really are.

Alien Sex

I’ll keep this over share short. An ex came up in a channeling (oh brother). We were really into sex magic when we were together. One of the first time we had sex he said “do you want to do sex magic”, and I said “yeah baby”. We didn't like set an intention or anything. We just said it out loud, and then had long sex that spanned throughout the night, as rendezvous with new lovers tend to do.

The next day, a friend said he has a dream about me having sex with a “heavily tattooed man” which is actually what happened. The man was heavily tattooed. Needless to say, we had quite the spicy connection, and when he came up in breathwork I felt instantly horny. This happens sometimes in breathwork. You are working with the Kundalini “life force” aka “fucking” energy, so this isn’t super uncommon. The breath is replicating breath patterns that sometimes we don’t feel outside of heavy exercise or sex.

I thought, fuck it I’m going to cheat. and I started touching myself. I came in a wondrous 10 seconds. It didn’t take much.

Enemies

I don’t trust anyone who doesn’t have any enemies. How have you lived your life so passively that no one has ever been a villain in your life, and you have never been the villain in someone else’s life? Can’t relate. I don’t have a ton of enemies in my life, but there are a few living (cheers to my rapist dying on the toilet).

To my shock and horror, a couple of enemies appeared in my channeling. If I wanted to keep my sweet, strong, alien orgasms I would have to send these letters to these fuckers. The first enemy has actually started to shift from enemies to grateful. She did end up giving me a lot more than what I could have imagined, despite also taking a great deal. I just thanked her for her support.

The second enemy is someone I believe has no business being in my field. And maybe that is fucked up for me to think, but it’s true. I see no silver lining to this person, and literally see them as a parasite sucking the life from beautiful people. I channeled a message for like… different things to activate their power and destress.

I kept both letters impersonal and short. I didn't want to give away my secrets, but knew I had to freaking send it to make it happen.

Regenerate

During this bizarre practice of breathwork and channeling, I got the message I needed to facilitate breathwork sessions. Enter: Regenerate This was coming as a complete surprise to me, but my intuition had been coming on so strong, I had to listen. Since sending it, my intuition has become literally yelling at me, and showing me the most time bendy experiences because were in it!

These sessions are a 2 week experience, that will kind of take you through a journey that I described. I think its important to have support outside of a 1 off breathwork session, that can be super activating but can leave you hanging.

I’ve designed “foreplay” and “aftercare” into this program to sustain you through the process into something that you can stick with, and allow the change to radiate throughout your entire body.

When I was planning my launches and work projects for April, making breathwork open was not included at all. I have taught a few breathwork classes before, as well as 1:1’s. The results have always been incredible to observe. Now that I think about it, opening these sessions has never been something that’s planned.

The connection that activates through the breathe makes everything so crystal clear, that you actually end up asking for the opposite of signs, because the signs and synchronicities start to appear at an alarming rate. You energetic field starts to radiate, that the physical has no choice but to time bend to match your energy.

Would love to see you in “regenerate” and thanks for stopping by!!