Embarrassment to Quantum Leap

Adam Sandler in Billy Madison’s icon “peeing your pants is cool” scene

Shameless

If you want different results, you have to live differently. So often we hear about “stepping out of your comfort zone”, but we never really dive much deeper in it then that. We just pause at “leave your comfort zone, and then things will start to change”. Typically, in the motivational sense it changes for the good, but stepping into the zone can also prep it for shit to get bad. How many people living on the street were risk taking people stepping out of their comfort zone. A zest for life on the wild side?

Lets take a couple steps back, and talk about shame. Why do we feel it? Why do we let shame and embarrassment take up so much space. When we think about how are life is supposed to be, or what the appropriate way to act is, we pause and follow the status quo to a tea. What is we didn’t. What if we danced in the streets? Talked to the stranger? Gave someone a high five? Sang a song? If we are supposed to be connected to nature, and “touch the grass to ground”, then why wouldn't we, by nature, act wild and shameless when we are outside? If sun good, why no make loud noise in sun alone?

Embarrassment Surplus

When I went through a divorce and estrangement with my family 3 years ago, I was cracked the fuck open. Thrust into a place where I had to heal and take accountability for the person I was to become, and not let sadness overcome me. I knew I could not remain the person I was before, because I was going through a rug pull. I turned to music, and by default- dance. I would go on walks and listen to music, and I would soak in the sun that was barely peaking through in the Rocky Mountain winter for a few hours a day. I found myself surrendering to dance. I would listen to music on a speaker, and dance shamelessly in my neighborhood. If people stared, I didn’t notice. This was my time to experience joy and piece myself together to feel like a happy girl.

I never stopped dancing. A few years later, something clicked- I was about to manifest things quicker when I was doing my public dance. I would think things, and they would appear. I would fall into a place of “head empty, only vibes”, and things would flow to me. Life became effortless, and people came into my life and flipped it upside down. The relationships, money, joy, peace, contentment just announced itself.

I think its important to note that by dancing out these emotions on the street it wasn’t all happiness and joy. We had some sad girl moments. Weeping in the snow filled streets after dark listening to dramatic showtunes, while dancing with my shadow in the streetlight. When I honored my emotions and let them fully express themself in a fully theatre kid kind of way, it allowed me to experience a catharsis and freedom that completely changed my life. I never held peoples opinions of my extremely high. It was never something that was my business, but dancing through the neighborhood I became an air bender. Moving the energy of the block with my hand, and prancing around like a delusional child.

Tameless

Shame keeps us safe and unexposed, but this isn’t where the magic happens. The magic happens where you release yourself from the expectation you keep for yourself, how it is polite and well mannered to behave, and let yourself go feral. Let yourself run through the streets. Treat yourself like the village crazy person who is all powerful, all humble, and all free. Shame keeps us insecure, wanting more, and needing products to keep fixing who we are, so we can fit into a plastic world that will teach us to consume, breath, and shit plastic. What if you want the dirt, sweat, and tears? Fuck shame. Life is too short to judge yourself. Let it go.

One Quantum Leap at a Time

Well looks like you found yourself in the quantum leap article. There is a lot to unpack here, and a lot to still uncover and discover. Whether you are interested in quantum leaping, abruptly quantum leaped, or a seasoned quantum leaper, perhaps this can lead you to something (or somewhere) you haven’t been before. This is by no means a complete, tell all. I want to offer support in any way I can, by talking about my experience and what I’ve learned about this process thus far through reading, courses, and experiencing quantum leaps.

What is a quantum leap?

It’s sci-fi. It’s literally time travel. The idea is that in the quantum real, there are infinite timelines, infinite possibilities and you are jumping to the timeline that is closest to you with least resistance. When you quantum leap, you are positioning yourself in said new timeline. It’s changing who you are as a person so violently and quickly, that sometimes it can destabilize your physical, . You need to prepare to loose everything and gain everything when you quantum leap. In order to make change, you must change your life. This is not something I recommend for everyone. When your vibrational pattern shifts into something else, sometimes it can be difficult or impossible to maintain existing relationships, old habits, and continue to live your old life. You are a new person. These habits that you once fought to change, just don't make sense anymore. Your morning daily breakfast of fruit and yogurt tastes too sweet and you now long for a savory breakfast. Are you prepared to make these changes? Are you willing to sacrifice your old self? I wish there was a more gentle way to rapidly change timelines, but often times, it is a violent death of your old self.

My Experience

A friend suggested a future self meditation that she found extremely helpful for her to learn more about herself, and uncover something that she didn’t know about her past, and there in her future. I tried out the meditation. I was immediately transported to myself 8 years in the future. She was a stunning image of Princess Diana wearing a trench coast, carrying a briefcase, and was a wealthy writer. I stayed in active meditation as I frantically wrote down everything she was telling me what I would need to know to get to where she was. I have never been the same since this day. A couple months later, my hair grew out from a buzzcut, and people started stopping me on the street and at parties to tell me I looked like Princess Diana. I then fully stepped into this new energy. I completely surrender to this new person, this new character I was playing. However, I still has grace with myself. During this time, I stopped being vegan, quit sugar for 6 months, moved across the country, and significantly changed my money story. I was able to change the way I smelled yesterday by simply writing “I want to smell like this” and then I smelled like that. There’s not a ton of rules here, just truly the power of belief, intention, and curiosity. Playfulness helps a lot too.

Before this meditation, I was doing a lot of things that were quickly changing my life. I was having extremely prophetic dreams, and being introduced to different divination techniques that just cleared the roadways for me to become a new person. The book “The Artists Way” played a huge part in this journey. When I went through the meditation, I was in the 12 week course, doing daily writings and artists dates. This cracked me open. The year of 2020 and 2021 has cracked me open. I think it has cracked a lot of the collective open. Things that were “impossible” now are becoming possible. Everyone has more uncertainty in the future and in the present, which in turn has facilitated time travel for the curious layman.

What is your why?

When you are making a drastic life decision, it is important to check in to why you are doing something. This justification doesn't need to sound right, but it needs to feel right. For example, my why is because I want to explore my human potential. I feel called to dig deep, and my martyr convictions of self sacrifice and exploration are dying to be unearthed. Your why could be something like getting into a new situation, you want to change your money story, change the relationships around you, change the perceptions and simplify the life that you live, change your focus. . The list goes on and on, but you will need to just want to, and want to enough to sacrifice your own self for the timeline of you that is living your far fetched dream life.

Modalities:

There are a ton of ways to timeline jump, quantum leap. They can be huge shifts, or something small. Some modalities include: dreams, meditations, future casting, dancing, literally just pouring water from one cup to another, reading a book. Any moment that shifts the way you feel, into something that seems subtly or drastically different. It can also accidentally happen. We experience quantum leaps all the time in something as small as forgetting what day it is, or wearing a different outfit and noticing a different energy to you. You get to choose how big you want it to affect you, and how much you commit to living like this new person. Sometimes, things like grief and great loss can act as huge catalysts to restructuring how you exist day to day. The person you were before the loss, simply does not exist anymore. The more you have a hold of who you want to become, you can construct this new blueprint for your life.

Aftercare

This link is always missing in our DIY spiritual transformations. We get the transformation done, et voila, we are a new person. But then what? I suggest having someone that can support you, and has experience in this type of thing. Be it a friend, spiritual mentor, therapist, etc. This is something that there can be super clear action steps to. I’d recommend digging into some Kundalini practice, as this is one of the only disciplines that works with instant, transformations. There can be a Kundalini Yoga class in your town, and that can be a good place to connect with people that can help and ease in your sudden transformation. A couple techniques I’ve picked up is to keep the energy circling if you feel like that energy impact needs distributed throughout you body. Take in the energy from the top of your head and then spread it around through your body: down your torso, down and up each legs, back through the torso, through each arm, and then cycle the energy out through the top of your head. . I find sometimes when I seek to get “grounded” after an extremely astral experience, I’ll cling to my phone to ground. Not the best tactic, and its my achilles heel. Acknowledge any “desperation groundings” and ask your future self you get over this. Doing something tactile with your hands can be very grounding: cooking, walking, dancing, reading, spending time with people you love, lighting a candle, stretching, taking a bath. Things that are low stress yet still excite you.. Keep it simple.

Meditations:

Here are some places to get started:

future blueprint

This is the meditation I created to let your past child lead you to your future self. When I discovered this modality, I felt convicted to share and have been elated to see peoples response to this work and this particular meditation. We incorporate some simple kundalini breath work to stimulate and keep you active in the meditation, and some grounding breath work to bring you present to your body.

michael sealy future self

The one that started it all. This is 1hr and a hell of a ride. I found I didn’t need the whole hour to meet myself in the future, and actively wrote the entire time. You do you here, but this one can definitely be more sleepy, so this could be something better to do when you are actively awake, and not before you go to sleep.

Advice:

Don’t play with fire if you don’t want to get burned or burn it all down. You won’t necessarily need to burn it all down, perhaps you will just need some small tweaks, but if you want to be a radically different person then you have to make radically different changes that may ask you to burn it all down. When you are co creating with your higher self, with your future self, with g-d— you are surrendering control. You need to prepare to loose everything and gain everything when you quantum leap. In order to make change, you must change your life. This is not something I recommend for everyone. You will not get to control, and the things and the new things about your body, emotions, and habits. Your new future timeline to you will be something beyond you could have imagined, and this is exactly the point. You are delving in the quantum as you do not want to You are literally going to be letting someone else drive the car. That is alright with me, because I am tired of driving.