Embarrassment to Quantum Leap
The key to becoming a different person is become a shameless version of yourself who is not afraid of rejection, and used self expression as a guide to quantum leap and manifest quickly.
Adam Sandler in Billy Madison’s icon “peeing your pants is cool” scene
Shameless
If you want different results, you have to live differently. So often we hear about “stepping out of your comfort zone”, but we never really dive much deeper in it then that. We just pause at “leave your comfort zone, and then things will start to change”. Typically, in the motivational sense it changes for the good, but stepping into the zone can also prep it for shit to get bad. How many people living on the street were risk taking people stepping out of their comfort zone. A zest for life on the wild side?
Lets take a couple steps back, and talk about shame. Why do we feel it? Why do we let shame and embarrassment take up so much space. When we think about how are life is supposed to be, or what the appropriate way to act is, we pause and follow the status quo to a tea. What is we didn’t. What if we danced in the streets? Talked to the stranger? Gave someone a high five? Sang a song? If we are supposed to be connected to nature, and “touch the grass to ground”, then why wouldn't we, by nature, act wild and shameless when we are outside? If sun good, why no make loud noise in sun alone?
Embarrassment Surplus
When I went through a divorce and estrangement with my family 3 years ago, I was cracked the fuck open. Thrust into a place where I had to heal and take accountability for the person I was to become, and not let sadness overcome me. I knew I could not remain the person I was before, because I was going through a rug pull. I turned to music, and by default- dance. I would go on walks and listen to music, and I would soak in the sun that was barely peaking through in the Rocky Mountain winter for a few hours a day. I found myself surrendering to dance. I would listen to music on a speaker, and dance shamelessly in my neighborhood. If people stared, I didn’t notice. This was my time to experience joy and piece myself together to feel like a happy girl.
I never stopped dancing. A few years later, something clicked- I was about to manifest things quicker when I was doing my public dance. I would think things, and they would appear. I would fall into a place of “head empty, only vibes”, and things would flow to me. Life became effortless, and people came into my life and flipped it upside down. The relationships, money, joy, peace, contentment just announced itself.
I think its important to note that by dancing out these emotions on the street it wasn’t all happiness and joy. We had some sad girl moments. Weeping in the snow filled streets after dark listening to dramatic showtunes, while dancing with my shadow in the streetlight. When I honored my emotions and let them fully express themself in a fully theatre kid kind of way, it allowed me to experience a catharsis and freedom that completely changed my life. I never held peoples opinions of my extremely high. It was never something that was my business, but dancing through the neighborhood I became an air bender. Moving the energy of the block with my hand, and prancing around like a delusional child.
Tameless
Shame keeps us safe and unexposed, but this isn’t where the magic happens. The magic happens where you release yourself from the expectation you keep for yourself, how it is polite and well mannered to behave, and let yourself go feral. Let yourself run through the streets. Treat yourself like the village crazy person who is all powerful, all humble, and all free. Shame keeps us insecure, wanting more, and needing products to keep fixing who we are, so we can fit into a plastic world that will teach us to consume, breath, and shit plastic. What if you want the dirt, sweat, and tears? Fuck shame. Life is too short to judge yourself. Let it go.
Dance Your Way to a New Life
Dance Everyday
Dancing everyday will change your life. It sounds too simple, too easy, and too stupid. Sometime the stupidest, most simple solutions are the most potent. When I say my life is completely unrecognizable when I began daily dancing for 20 minutes, I know it sounds like an actually joke.
I shaved my head in December 2020, and began taking 20 minutes everyday to dance. Initially, it was just as a way for creative expression and exercise while in lockdown. Then, my intuition, magic, clarity, and manifestation abilities began to skyrocket. I started to really explore this dance, and document what was happening in my life. I began writing affirmations, and scripting lofty financial money goals. Friends, when evyerhting I was writing down became my actual reality I felt like I was living in X-Games Mode.
Even now, being so in tune with my body and suboconscious can be exhausting, but dancing was the one thing that I was able to come back to. The one thing I was able to trust myself with. My mind would get worried and filled with anxiety, but when I came back to my body- things would start coming up that I was not expecting. All I could do was honor the feelings and the experience, and let myself surrender into the moment of sadness, anger, joy, drama, peace, helplessness, or confusion.
Burst
This is for when you need to pump up, or you are already pumped up and you want to kick it up a notch. Burst is when you want to manifest your highest desires, and embody all of the joy and intensity by turning the notch up. Dance in the most dramatic experience, and get
Seduce
This one is good for chilling, feeling yourself. Listening to seductive music in the morning and dancer like a sex demon in the mirror is one of my favorite practices, and perhaps you would find it a titillating way for you to start your day. I like to start my mornings slow and sexy, and this is a good one to get you there.
Release
This one is good for chilling, feeling yourself. Listening to seductive music in the morning and dancer like a sex demon in the mirror is one of my favorite practices, and perhaps you would find it a titillating way for you to start your day. I like to start my mornings slow and sexy, and this is a good one to get you there.
The Real Tea of Manifestation
Elle Woods give us an excellent example of someone who manifests with intent
We are in a peculiar time in history. The technological advances around us are at a magnatude of wonderful, scary, fantastic, and frightening. We are to a point where envisioning 10 years into the future seems like an arduous and brave task. We see the technological development exceed to places we aren’t even sure we want. “Oh great, a metaverse,” or “Uber is investing in flying cars,” are some of the bizarre phrases that we have uttered in this new century. As the outer technology has taken on a new character role on our life. Our inner technology has also began to expedite and grow. The main modality, and the hot buzzword: manifestation.
As a millennial woman existing on the internet, I am constantly bombarded with things about manifestation. Headlines blare: “How to Manifest Your Future” and “8 Hacks to Help you Manifest Now”. I am no stranger to manifestation, and have discovered my own tips and tricks, that walk some lines that folks are a little uncomfortable with saying outloud, as you are already viewed as a blacksheep.
However, in my wild experience of manifesting things I have had to do a things that a lot of times these master manifestor-s or guru’s leave out because of the implication.
Surrender Control and Rationality
We are taught said to have some sort of control in life. We are supposed to have some sort of linear thinking. However, when we are manifesting- we are supposed to concentrate on the energy of experiencing a radical quantum leap. We’re supposed to act as if it always is. We go into a situation ready to accept any challenge that we might experience. When you release any pretext of things that may go wrongs, or inventing problems in your mind you open the cave of exploration, you stir the cauldron of manifestation. When we have little room for doubt, we only have room for self confidence and forcing ourself to be the person that things differently and moves differently in the world. One of my favorite examples of this is our bold, confident, and ruthless: Elle Woods.
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Elle Woods
Cult classic and personal favorite, Legally Blonde, follows the heroes journey of Elle Woods as she applies and gets to Harvard Law School to reunite with an old love because “What, like its hard?” This is the energy of surrendering rationality. This program is one of the most prestigious in the world, and Elle had no doubt that she would get in and thrive. Not only did this usher in the era of power bimbos, but this blind confidence and focused energy is what allowed Elle to quantum leap into a lawyer who graduated valedictorian. She dressed the part, put her head down and began focusing on being the person she wanted to be: a lawyer.
Embracing Delusion
I see so many “master manifestor-s” dance around saying delusion because of the negative connotation and, quite frankly, potentially dangerous outcome. Manifesting is a delicate dance between the veil where we are playing with the time- space continuum, and sometimes, it can be quite difficult to remain grounded enough to see our thoughts become reality. The delusion aspect is that part that asks us to step into with the presence, confidence, and embodiment of the energy that we are manifesting. Delusion is also the fun part. Delusion is when you get to say “why not”, play dress up, and pretend like you are a little kid with pantie hose on your head for long hair. Delusion is Baby Spice. Delusion teases perception. Delusion is what allows artists to see something different and create a masterpiece through their tainted lens. One real life characters who has created his life to imitate his art its : Kanye West.
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Kanye West
From West’s early days, he has always been known for his brash attitude, opulent style, arrogant attitude, and acting with the prestige of someone who was famous. When Kanye’s mom died, he wrote and produced the prolific album: My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy where he details his intentions of attaining ultimate fame, power, and fortune. He says “One day I’m going to marry a porn star,” and then he does. He goes on to talk about how he wants to have a powerful, plastic family. He has married into one of the most famous, powerful, and plastic families in existence.
He also talks about that in this pursuit of power and fame, he will loose his mind. He spins a dark tale, which is becoming a self fulfilling prophecy of suicidal ideation and spinning out of control. This begets the old question of “does life imitate art” or “does art imitate life”. It is surreal to see things come to fruition, that West foretold in earlier. The delusion is what propelled him into stardom he knew he was going to be famous and so it was. He then wove a powerful tale in one of the most critically acclaimed albums of our time.
Making Space
This is the integral part into maintaining your sanity and presence while you manifest an extreme energetic change in your life. This is the part where you release all of the parts that are keeping you tied to something that you are not interested in anymore. In the example of Elle Woods, she physically left the town she lived in, and left her friends and family. This created space for her to become the lawyer of her dreams as she didn’t have to confine herself to old perceptions of herself, and instead surrounded herself with hard working, focused people. In terms of Kanye West, he devoted himself to a new life after his mom died and he went full villain mode. He wrote an entire album about becoming a villain, and detailed the life he was now going to leave now that all sense of morality and responsibility had left this plane.
Making space in your life can be as drastic as you would like it. Listen to your intuition on that one. I invited you to find this balance of what you want to see in the world, and begin releasing. Once you start to make space, things will appear and pop up inviting you to make more space, shed more skin, and release more into the person you are making space to become.
One Quantum Leap at a Time
What if you could change your life in one moment?
Well looks like you found yourself in the quantum leap article. There is a lot to unpack here, and a lot to still uncover and discover. Whether you are interested in quantum leaping, abruptly quantum leaped, or a seasoned quantum leaper, perhaps this can lead you to something (or somewhere) you haven’t been before. This is by no means a complete, tell all. I want to offer support in any way I can, by talking about my experience and what I’ve learned about this process thus far through reading, courses, and experiencing quantum leaps.
What is a quantum leap?
It’s sci-fi. It’s literally time travel. The idea is that in the quantum real, there are infinite timelines, infinite possibilities and you are jumping to the timeline that is closest to you with least resistance. When you quantum leap, you are positioning yourself in said new timeline. It’s changing who you are as a person so violently and quickly, that sometimes it can destabilize your physical, . You need to prepare to loose everything and gain everything when you quantum leap. In order to make change, you must change your life. This is not something I recommend for everyone. When your vibrational pattern shifts into something else, sometimes it can be difficult or impossible to maintain existing relationships, old habits, and continue to live your old life. You are a new person. These habits that you once fought to change, just don't make sense anymore. Your morning daily breakfast of fruit and yogurt tastes too sweet and you now long for a savory breakfast. Are you prepared to make these changes? Are you willing to sacrifice your old self? I wish there was a more gentle way to rapidly change timelines, but often times, it is a violent death of your old self.
My Experience
A friend suggested a future self meditation that she found extremely helpful for her to learn more about herself, and uncover something that she didn’t know about her past, and there in her future. I tried out the meditation. I was immediately transported to myself 8 years in the future. She was a stunning image of Princess Diana wearing a trench coast, carrying a briefcase, and was a wealthy writer. I stayed in active meditation as I frantically wrote down everything she was telling me what I would need to know to get to where she was. I have never been the same since this day. A couple months later, my hair grew out from a buzzcut, and people started stopping me on the street and at parties to tell me I looked like Princess Diana. I then fully stepped into this new energy. I completely surrender to this new person, this new character I was playing. However, I still has grace with myself. During this time, I stopped being vegan, quit sugar for 6 months, moved across the country, and significantly changed my money story. I was able to change the way I smelled yesterday by simply writing “I want to smell like this” and then I smelled like that. There’s not a ton of rules here, just truly the power of belief, intention, and curiosity. Playfulness helps a lot too.
Before this meditation, I was doing a lot of things that were quickly changing my life. I was having extremely prophetic dreams, and being introduced to different divination techniques that just cleared the roadways for me to become a new person. The book “The Artists Way” played a huge part in this journey. When I went through the meditation, I was in the 12 week course, doing daily writings and artists dates. This cracked me open. The year of 2020 and 2021 has cracked me open. I think it has cracked a lot of the collective open. Things that were “impossible” now are becoming possible. Everyone has more uncertainty in the future and in the present, which in turn has facilitated time travel for the curious layman.
What is your why?
When you are making a drastic life decision, it is important to check in to why you are doing something. This justification doesn't need to sound right, but it needs to feel right. For example, my why is because I want to explore my human potential. I feel called to dig deep, and my martyr convictions of self sacrifice and exploration are dying to be unearthed. Your why could be something like getting into a new situation, you want to change your money story, change the relationships around you, change the perceptions and simplify the life that you live, change your focus. . The list goes on and on, but you will need to just want to, and want to enough to sacrifice your own self for the timeline of you that is living your far fetched dream life.
Modalities:
There are a ton of ways to timeline jump, quantum leap. They can be huge shifts, or something small. Some modalities include: dreams, meditations, future casting, dancing, literally just pouring water from one cup to another, reading a book. Any moment that shifts the way you feel, into something that seems subtly or drastically different. It can also accidentally happen. We experience quantum leaps all the time in something as small as forgetting what day it is, or wearing a different outfit and noticing a different energy to you. You get to choose how big you want it to affect you, and how much you commit to living like this new person. Sometimes, things like grief and great loss can act as huge catalysts to restructuring how you exist day to day. The person you were before the loss, simply does not exist anymore. The more you have a hold of who you want to become, you can construct this new blueprint for your life.
Aftercare
This link is always missing in our DIY spiritual transformations. We get the transformation done, et voila, we are a new person. But then what? I suggest having someone that can support you, and has experience in this type of thing. Be it a friend, spiritual mentor, therapist, etc. This is something that there can be super clear action steps to. I’d recommend digging into some Kundalini practice, as this is one of the only disciplines that works with instant, transformations. There can be a Kundalini Yoga class in your town, and that can be a good place to connect with people that can help and ease in your sudden transformation. A couple techniques I’ve picked up is to keep the energy circling if you feel like that energy impact needs distributed throughout you body. Take in the energy from the top of your head and then spread it around through your body: down your torso, down and up each legs, back through the torso, through each arm, and then cycle the energy out through the top of your head. . I find sometimes when I seek to get “grounded” after an extremely astral experience, I’ll cling to my phone to ground. Not the best tactic, and its my achilles heel. Acknowledge any “desperation groundings” and ask your future self you get over this. Doing something tactile with your hands can be very grounding: cooking, walking, dancing, reading, spending time with people you love, lighting a candle, stretching, taking a bath. Things that are low stress yet still excite you.. Keep it simple.
Meditations:
Here are some places to get started:
This is the meditation I created to let your past child lead you to your future self. When I discovered this modality, I felt convicted to share and have been elated to see peoples response to this work and this particular meditation. We incorporate some simple kundalini breath work to stimulate and keep you active in the meditation, and some grounding breath work to bring you present to your body.
The one that started it all. This is 1hr and a hell of a ride. I found I didn’t need the whole hour to meet myself in the future, and actively wrote the entire time. You do you here, but this one can definitely be more sleepy, so this could be something better to do when you are actively awake, and not before you go to sleep.
Advice:
Don’t play with fire if you don’t want to get burned or burn it all down. You won’t necessarily need to burn it all down, perhaps you will just need some small tweaks, but if you want to be a radically different person then you have to make radically different changes that may ask you to burn it all down. When you are co creating with your higher self, with your future self, with g-d— you are surrendering control. You need to prepare to loose everything and gain everything when you quantum leap. In order to make change, you must change your life. This is not something I recommend for everyone. You will not get to control, and the things and the new things about your body, emotions, and habits. Your new future timeline to you will be something beyond you could have imagined, and this is exactly the point. You are delving in the quantum as you do not want to You are literally going to be letting someone else drive the car. That is alright with me, because I am tired of driving.